I get tired whenever she tries to hide something from me. I get tired of thinking these negative things. Whenever I get mad at her I sometimes think that "Oh i should do this to her" or "I won't talk to her" but I reject those kind of thoughts because I know that if I turn into a bad friend, I'll end up as a worst person.

I always endure the times whenever she hurts me but sometimes I feel like giving up. I feel like I don't want to talk to her anymore. I don't want to see her anymore but if i do those kind of things then can I be called as a friend? I'm just expressing my feelings right now because this is what I feel.

Sighs, I'm not worried of being called a bad friend by others but I'm worried about my friendship with that girl. She told me that I was her best friend and I don't want to let her down. I just wish she would notice how hard it is for me right now. :|